Stuff and thoughts.... And more stuff.

So I do this thinking thing a lot. (Which most people do, some just have more complex thoughts then others)

I think about things that are relevant to getting older every time my birthday comes up.

Marriage. My brother is getting married this summer and so is one of my best friends. I'm in both weddings. A few other friends of mine are getting married this year or got engaged. I however, am not. And I'm not really worried about any of that. I had a discussion with my friend Tommie about how I didn't want the "white picket fence American dream". That's just not me. And last year it felt like that was my only option because of my career as a teacher was just getting started and that I was well on my way to a husband, 2.5 kids, a dog, house, blah, blah, blah. I'm never going to like that. Even if I think I might, I wont like it forever. The whole thing gave me a panic attack last year that lasted about 2 weeks. Yeah.... That's clearly not for me.

I need to marry (if I ever decide to) someone who is just as wild as me and willing to be young for the rest of our lives. Also someone who isn't afraid of being awesome and traveling with me as a blacksmith at ren fests.

Tommie made a point of saying that I might buy a house one day, but I'll be the one with a trebuchet in the back yard shooting water balloons filled with shaving cream at my neighbor's house, then running and hiding inside like we didn't do anything. Yup, that's totally plausible.

I think about other things too. Like jobs, what I'm going to do when I'm done with school, stuff like that.

Sean (my roommate), asked me what I was going to do when I was done with school this time around. I replied that I was going to be awesome. I guess it doesn't really matter what I do with it, as long as I'm doing something I enjoy. That's what's most important, doing something you enjoy. It doesn't matter about the money, money doesn't matter. As long as you can pay your bills on time, livable food budget, and some to save for rainy days, then well, that's all you need.

Who could ask for more?

Hearts and stars,

Olivia

Trying new things

Now, I know that I'm probably the worst person to diet. I'm bad at it and I give up easily.

Now that my stress level is SO much better, I've decided to try to at least eat better.

Now if Econo would just stop making that amazing spinach dip, then I wouldn't have to buy it each week. Spinach dip is my cheat food. I allow myself about 1/4 of a cup daily.

I've been using this food tracker on www.livestrong.com/myplate that my friend Christina showed me. It's basically a way for me to keep track of what I'm eating and it's super easy to use. I even bought good food to eat so that I'm eating less garbage and junk, which I know I eat a lot of.

I'm trying do keep things in proportion. Which is half the battle. I can also track my water intake online as well.

This morning I weighed myself. Slightly less then earlier this week. I really needed to stop eating all those Doritos and cookies. I can have some, just not so darn many.

But It's pretty cool to see what your taking in and it's kinda a wake up call. It's like, whoa, that's just too much! Even if you don't think it's that much, it really is.

And I feel awesome.

Feeling good and happy,

Olivia

No, Libby, I don't post enough.

I know I don't post a lot. Not like I used to. Now it's not like I don't think about it, I just don't get around to it.

Been busy, I made a Gnome. https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10100685850996118&set=a.811422121618.2417160.21721772&type=3&theater

There's the link to him. I'm going to paint him like David the Gnome and he'll be my new travel partner.

I also realized that I am a better artist then I thought I was. Damn you who ever told me I wasn't good enough. Because I believed it for far too long.

Also the assface that told me I wasn't that pretty, damn you too. I also believed you for far too long.

I've listened to other people for far too long in my life. I'm slowly becoming less connected to things that weigh me down. And soon I'll be able to take flight. (That's a tad bit sappy).

I also am not used to unseasonably warm weather in the yoop. But it makes for good skirt weather. I've worn one for two days now.

I also would like to point out that my walmart "uniform" is like kryptonite. Once it has been removed I feel better. And I usually only say that I hate my life on the days that I'm scheduled to be there. Yup, it's just my job that I hate, but it's not forever. I'll find one that I love again.

The weathers been so warm that it makes me want to go swimming. But I know that lake is too cold. Not that it'll get much warmer, but being warm for a couple months will increase the lake temp.

So a pile of random thoughts and things. But then again, I'm pretty random.

Love,

Olivia